Wasted...

Sigh....
I'm feeling so wasted... I dont want to lift up my IPRA textbook, in which I havent even touched yet... and the examination is next week...
I got 70+ for the IPRA test.... I'm like so dead...
How am I going to maintain my average of Bs to get into the specialist course?....

This is killing me...

No.. really... my laziness is going to be my ultimate downfall...

I've spent the whole night in front of the computer looking at htmls from other sites... and wondering how on earth can I change my already VERY complicated blog template..
Then I realized that it is almost impossible...
By that time, it was already 10:30...

BAH... 20x

I am scheduled for worship practice this saturday after my minor break for 2 weeks... I really dont feel like going actually...
I dont even feel like I belong in my church anymore... The people there are super cool and super fun... but they all talk stuff which I dont know or cant relate too...
Mostly about soccer, basketball and sports related stuff...

And I'm not close at all to the gals... maybe only Evelyn...

Sigh... But I'm binded by responsibility to St. Matthew's Church... I was born there, brought up there, and my childhood friends are all there....
Moreover, if I leave now, there will not be any pianist or keyboardist for at least another year or so that can commit as much "time" as me...

I wonder if God knows my effort....

Talking about effort... Does society acknowledge effort or result?
It is extremely debatable...
But I mean like.. duh... Everything is based on results...

If you are the boss of a company, you gave the assignment to a person and he works night and day for 2 weeks, and completes it with average results
Compared to a person who worked for 2 days, and completed the assignment with even better results.....

The boss will definately sack the 1st person or at least re-post him to an easier position, and promote the person who is extremely "efficient"...

So, as you can see... The world does not acknowledge effort, but only result....
Bottom line is.. if you know that you can never compare to another group of people, give up totally and work with another...
This will increase your chance of survival substentially...

Thus, I have given up most hope of achieving my dreams of being in the honour's roll in DMC....
No matter how much effort I put in, it NEVER EVER shows...

My life is just so great..........


Tomorrow is the IVP examination, and I dont even know what to talk about...
It is as though I could just fall flat on my face and die during the examination...

April Fools?...
I might as well fool around with the lecturer... I wont be getting my ideal results anywayz...